Feeling Kafkaesque

“Don't bend; don't water it down; don't try to make it logical; don't edit your own soul according to the fashion. Rather, follow your most intense obsessions mercilessly.” ― Franz Kafka

This is not biography about one of my favorite authors of all time, this is an exploitation of a common sensations and experiences that Franz thought that he solely experienced. Franz express his complexity of emotions through his writings in solitude; never intending for it to be his legacy and he never dreamed the glory of the afterwards.

When Franz wrote he provided the context for all of the complex layers of human emotions, the absurdity and the hopelessness that the characters suddenly experience; an impossible circumstances that has no logical explanation but its real and its happening to the character and we can’t justify why and how; so does the characters they just find them selves experiencing things that is forced upon them unreasonably; we witness how they always chose to respond to it regardless of the context or the reasoning or even the outcome as of coping was the only momentary survival tool.

We share what Franz explains, at the beginning when we become acutely aware of our existence at the end of childhood. We experience a sudden understanding of life, existence and all the difference complex being components; out of choice to pursue existence we are pushed into experiencing things and places as we trying to build the picture that is so blurry of what we were taught to believe or know; and that was our core.

As we grow it becomes an ongoing process of crashing that built in core, and we reach to a level of awarenesses that will enable us to evaluate how flawed, imperfect and blinding it was. we continue adulthood crushing that core and building a new one while we adapt to all that is around us; and as we do we are expected to fulfill our prerequisite social roles and every other demand that becomes a mandatory in our core.

So Franz, what your character experienced was never a fictional absurd experiences that mocked reality; It is an insightful experience of a highly conscious mind.

I'm feeling Kafkaesque everyday.